a year~~!!

I am leaving soon. Time ticking away. I'm been here more than a year, but it seem likes I am just happened yesterday.

Preview this year, I seem like do nothing but I earn lots of things. Most of the things, I'll never experience if I only stay in Malaysia.

I seen some of the USA; I learned something I'll never can control it; I learned something I only can let it goes; I understand I'm only a dust in the world! I figure out sometimes it is not true even though I saw it with my own eyes. I learned something need to keep as a secret; something need to speak it out!

A year could change my mind pretty much!!! Only a year! I'll never ever tell someone I'm not going to change. Be honest, I'm changing every moment~

Is that silly?

Such a bad feeling to her! Why her mother treats her likes that? I can't believe it! She is her daughter!! Somehow, I don't understand what is her mother thought. 

Yeah, right! She is the older kid, so what? Older kid doesn't means that she need to know everything! Doesn't means she need to be go after her younger siblings! Doesn't means that she has to give anything that her siblings want! 

When I look at her, she was crying badly! I felt so bad for her. She tried to tell all of her feeling. She feels that is unfair for her just because she is the older sister. She feels unfair that everyone side with the younger siblings most of the time.

Wow~ I've been with them for awhile. Kinda know what is going on. I can't accept a mother kept protecting the younger and hurting the older just because the younger more sensitive than her sister. Protection have to use in the right way~ Have to teach her to learn it is not OK to become grumpy without reason. Or when she feels angry she could hurt others feeling even though that are her siblings.

But, She doesn't! What kind of mother of that? Is that silly? 

when I think "IT's just HUMAN BEING

Lately, I heard a lot of stories. Why we've to make our self so sad? Why we've to scold people, hurt people? Is that make us feel happiness? I don't think so. But, when I think, "it's just human being". It makes me feel better.

Who doesn't care about themselves before others? Everyone is put themselves in the first place. Don't tell me you're not. It's just human being.

Who doesn't care about their family member than others? They don't care how others' family member feeling at first. They doesn't care neither that is fair. It's just human being.

who doesn't love themselves? If you're not, I have nothing to say. If you can't love yourself, who's going to love you? If you don't take care of yourself, don't love yourself. which means, you have no right to say they don't love you. They may hurt you if you hurt yourself at the beginning. Don't doubt it. It's just human being.

Everything... when I think IT'S JUST HUMAN BEING, it could make me understand lots of the reasons why such things happen. Because we are human. We just do whatever human would do. It doesn't matter when, where, who, what. As Long As We Are HUMAN.